It's been a while since I wrote but ...
July has been a month of hibanation, reflection and to much on the go in my head... I didn't sleep last night, wondering and worrying about everything I'm doing.... I'm sure there are many small business owners trying to take something to the next level who have similar shit sleeping patterns! It's weird, but since Cecil the Lion horror story I have been wondering why I'm so focussed on my business and not on things that really matter ...it sucks ....it sucks to know that I don't have any clout to make change ... So to compromise, I've altered my business plan.. One to open HK, work my arse off...sell it to Loreal and then help nail poachers full time. I'm also going to research and find out the best place I can donate to and set up some form of formal donation to assist someone based on the ground in Africa to help them fight against wankers who have no soul, and need to make them selves feel manly by killing these beautiful anaimals. Quite frankly humans are idiots! I've found my cause ..actually I believe this past week I realised why I was born. I can't just sit back and do nothing.
On the business side of things...I'm still in limbo, but have made a decision to refind my courage and make some strong bold decisions ... So that's it...A for AUGUST and A for Awesome.... Let's do this ..starting 'A'fter another coffee!
As I forced the staff to do a lunchtime team run yesterday around the ghetto land in our area (actually one of the highest crime areas in South auckland) so not only was it a run, but almost a navy seal mission... One thing stood out for me..a comment made by Julz aka as my dearest friend Amy, she said 'bloody hell shaz ..you're like an energiser bunny...you just keep going and going' as I actually, even though I was physically dying inside... I wanted to make out I wasn't.... Julz also didn't see me last night soaking my aches and pains and taking a nurophen as I clearly had I over done the exercise that day..So I guess with a new month comes new determination from this energiser bunny to keep going and going ... However I feel like a freakin old pathetic bunny right now who doesn't want to come out of his little warm hole, I'm going to hop right out back into the traffic.
Ok ...wish me luck, as July hasn't really started out as I planned but Im putting my little cotton socks back on and here I go! Knew I should have rolled with 'SirSockAlot' ... :(
I'm feeling hungry, sleep deprived and happy to say good by to June, not only has it been to cold for my liking (not a winter type of girl) but also I have spent the whole month in limbo... (I'm also not a limbo type of girl)..!
In saying that, limbo has also been semi kind to me, it's made me make decisions about getting back into shape, it's also made me firmer on expectations. So I guess limbo has its purpose, as when you can't control anything you tend to apply yourself to things you can, and normally things that should have been sorted a while back...so that's cool...but I'm not going to lie...I'm happy to kiss goodbye to June...may July be more certain and allow me to get things done! #buildabiz
Dear Universe, ...ok, I'm sorry but I have a few requests .. Firstly I just want to state my case.... I've been a good girl lately and working very hard. I know I've been eating a lot of chocolate cupcakes, but really, I think we can classify this as comfort eating whilst I await the #buildabiz shopify results.
Anyway Universe, can you please do a few things for me...
1. Shine down on the awesome peeps at #shopify and give them warm fuzzy feelings about #honeybunch ....or tell them to please put me out of my cupcake eating misery ...it's not good for me!
2. Whisper in Richard Bransons ear how good his hair looks blowing in the wind, and in the same breath mention my name and #honeybunch....
3. Last but not least ...as this one is the toughest cookies, possibly ...whilst Tim Ferriss is sipping on his tea, can you please form the letters Honeybunch with his tea leaves... Maybe do a tea left portrait of me when I was 18 or something...? Will 'leaf' it up to you ..
Ok, thanks Universe, I know it's a big ask .... But I have every faith in you #buildabiz
feel better now :)